Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Don't Know What To Do

I have never experienced anything like this in my 5 years of poker. I just cannot control how well I play. I know something is a wrong move, but I do it anyway. My EV line is down 5k since its peak earlier this month. I played some Rush Poker on FullTilt, which is NL50, and promptly lost 1k. I wish I could say I ran bad, but I really didn't. I just keep making stupid plays.

I am lucky that my form of tilting doesn't involve moving up and blowing my roll. I just spew and spew at whatever limits I play, till I feel so ashamed at what I'm doing. Losing 20 buyins at NL50 means I was seriously playing terrible. Even when I play super turbos, I feel myself making bad calls and pushes.

I thought the 5 day break would help, but I have gone straight back into this stupid form of playing. Sometimes I need to remind myself how lucky I am with regards to poker. Most players (including me when I was starting) would dream of having my roll and playing the games I do. I don't mean to sound arrogant, but I need to get myself out of this funk. I need to start getting excited about making a +0.5% push, instead of just thinking "$#$A it, it's only NL50, I will just tilt shove". I mean, I lost a $400 pot at NL50, drawing to 6 outs on the river. Stupid Rush Poker. It is unbelievably addicting though.

I think I need some more time off. The next 2 days are going to be full of golf. Maybe I will finish all college application work, and then hit poker hard again.


  1. The situation is the same here...

    I moved back from the 75$ limit, and now playing only 45s and 30s. I hope this will help me to gain back my self confidence, and achieve some good result in the rest of the month.

    Good luck, hope you will be again on the peak soon!


  2. Am sure it's just a passing phase arjun. Get the college applications done. Might be a good distraction. If you need help with your SOPs or anything send me a mail.

  3. Pete - I think I will play some rush poker over the next few days just because it is so much fun. I am going to play whatever I feel like for a while, and then do a challenge sometime soon.

    peerlesspig - I definitely need help with SOPs, how do I get in contact with you?

  4. i am in the same boat. past three years i been over 100k, but past this month i been jus breakeven, and swinging non stop. when u figure how to change this let me knowwww

  5. Hey arjun,

    rvsriniv at gmail dot com

    Am the same guy who bugged you with PLO hands ;).